I wanted to start by saying a huge THANK YOU!
At the time of writing this post my website has received 925 hits in just 14 days! WOW I never imagined it would do so well in such a short space of time… I am humbled that you have all taken the time to visit my blogsite… and hope you will continue to follow my book & I through dawnsdaily.com. Thank you for your messages of encouragement and support – again, I am humbled.
I have recieved some great advice along the way, which I will be incorporating into my website in the near future! I read somewhere once that “your only as good as the people around you” and firmly believe this to be true – I have a great support network which I could not be without. I would like to end today’s post with just this: If at first you don’t succeed try and try again!
THANK YOU !
As my niece was staying with us for a couple of days I thought it would be a fabulous idea for us all to go out for dinner and celebrate, as I had reached a milestone with my book! This was what I had in mind – a toast before dinner, words of pride from my hubby, a “love you mummy” from my princess, hmmm this is reality not the big screen and this is how it went. We arrived at the restaurant with a very grumpy toddler (missed her afternoon sleep!) and as we all sat down to talk about the book, my princess decided to roll around on the floor with arms and legs flailing (just what every parent dreads)!
The waitress appeared with her note book, ” are you ready to place your order” my princess piped up ” CHOCOLATE CAAAAAKE” my niece sat in the corner very embarrassed (she is 13 yrs old)! My hubby looked at our princess then looked at me and rolled his eyes, that was my cue to deal with the situation. So I decided to just place our order as follows: “I would like a pair of handcuffs please, followed by a thick roll of sellotape, then I would very much like a bottle of your best … please and can you hurry as this is an emergency” The waitress just looked on with a blank expression, my princess went quiet, my hubby and niece just looked the other way… at the site of all their faces I just started laughing – at which point everyone else joined me too! The evening was an eventual success. So all though it never went quite as I imagined, my milestone was definitely marked … my princess got her chocolate cake and I had a celebratory glass of wine! Just the one mind as I had a toddler to put to bed … and believe me when I say she was not a willing participant!
Today has been a very constructive day as far as research for my book goes. My brother came over for the afternoon accompanied by his daughter (my niece) who kept my little princess amused for a couple of hours whilst we compared memory banks! The great thing was we each recalled separate instances which made for great research once all put together. Its amazing what your mind chooses to remember or to forget, being reminded of one small detail or one place can bring back a flood of memories … I was writing ferociously whilst he was here in the fear that once he had left I may forget again!
Why is it when you need to pay your memory bank a visit it fails you at the very moment you need it? I find this happens to me more often than not…maybe this is a little sneak preview into old age (a taster as it was)! Note to self: start writing lists! Not that I’m old of course – far from it, but try telling my memory this! I have come to conclude that our memory banks are sectioned into four departments as follows: the past, the present, the future, and finally, when I can be bothered to recall!!! Well this seems to be the case in my head at least. I’m sure my brain is well insulated with B vitamins as I have been eating marmite for years, so there is absolutely no excuse! Lets hope today’s reminders from my brother has helped to “jump start” those sleeping memory cells!
Laptops in our household are like a gold bullion … once left unmanned they disappear! Yes this is true I have thought about connecting myself to one with an industrial chain recently to guarantee the use of one at all times! My 2.8yr old demands to play online ABC games or online colouring at the very point I have just logged on, then there is my hubby who also has one eye positioned ready to pounce the minute it becomes free (he does have a works laptop however)! I decide to call a household meeting re: the said laptop, I have designated usage times all set out for each one of us (perfect I thought) feeling very proud of myself. A little later when its my turn after my princess is fast asleep I go to the cupboard to retrieve the laptop and its gone? I search everywhere … no laptop, I hear giggling coming from upstairs my little ones room, I follow the noise until I reach the door I push it open and they are both sat there holding the said laptop laughing very endearingly! Their point was made distinctly. So to share the point I have very little time with which to do my writing, however I make the most of every last minute. My daughter reminds me in her own way everyday that she comes first in my life no matter what and I have to concure!
I want to share a little wisdom with you its free and priceless – I recently read a quote from a fellow writer as follows: “There will always be those who want to discourage your dreams, this is because they were too weak to follow there own”. This has stayed with me since, “Why” you may ask? Because I think we all come up against this negativity during our lifetime, the trick is to just smile knowing you are strong enough to fulfil yours!
It matters not what your dream is, writing a book, (claiming ownership of the household laptop!) climbing a mountain, travelling the world, directing a movie, or simply creating a large family! The point is just going for it, don’t be discouraged by anything, reach out for what you want and make it happen! There will always be obstacles to over come its up to us as individuals to find the strength to climb them.
As my story unravels it self on the pages before me I cant help wondering who that little girl was. I hardly recognise her, was that really me? I have learnt throughout my life that the human mind is capable of coping with just about anything, we all have a built in default button hidden in the depths of our mind. Whilst writing my book, I have travelled to places I never wanted to revisit, I have remembered events that haunted me through my whole childhood, that little girl I am writing about is far stronger than the woman I am today.
I want to travel back in time right now and say to her “everything is going to be ok” I want to tell her that there is a whole better world out there just waiting for her, all you have to do is get through your childhood and you will then control your own destiny. I have the utmost respect for this little girl. I look to my own daughter now and wonder at anyone who could cause any amount of pain to a child, its unthinkable to me I will never be able to understand.
I am on the most amazing journey with my book and I hope that when its finished you will all feel the same way when reading it. I am a firm believer that you can do anything if you put your mind to it, you just have to want it badly enough. A passion for anything can drive you forward at an unbelievable speed, I know I’m currently speeding at 200 miles per hour!!!
This world is a beautiful place we just need to open our eyes a little wider sometimes.
When you have children you take a completely different view of the world … I used to look so polished, my hair was immaculate, my make up just right, my nails a different colour every other day! Then I had Lilliah, my beautiful princess, and every thing changed. I’m lucky if I have time to put on my mascara before leaving the house! This said I would not have it any other way, she has inspired me to pick up my writing again – every time I look at her angel like face I know she will be proud of me one day. I do what I do for Lilliah as well as myself. I want to leave her with something before I depart this wonderful planet, something that will maybe inspire her one day to full fill her dreams what ever they may be. I want to instill in her that any thing is possible if you want it bad enough, nothing is out of reach.
One thing I know for sure is that Lilliah makes everything that I have been through worthwhile, I believe that every step I have taken in my life was leading me to the point when I became a mother to my princess. Just the other day she said very seriously ” mummy what are you doing” I replied ” writing you a story” I then went on to explain to her that its a very special story for you to read when your all grown up like mummy. She then walked over to me and gave me a big kiss – priceless. There is no love like the love of a child. It is the highest of all honours to be a parent one that should never be taken for granted.
The child first and foremost.
Life is a journey to be experienced to its fullest. This is my view at least, the willingness to accept challenges put before you, the world is a very small place yet it is also vast in its entirety. We so often forget the wonder of the world and all it has to offer – why? Quick answer: because we are so busy living our lives it often escapes us. Do you remember when you were a child and how amazing everything appeared to you then? Seeing your first rainbow, the snow falling for the very first time, your first holiday the sea and its vastness (even if it was only Skegness!) Just the pure wonder of it all. Well, as unusal as it may seem, I still feel like that about many things (yes I am a grown up now just incase your wondering)! I am lucky that I still remember how it felt to experience those innocent parts of life for the first time – maybe its because they are all I have to hold on to from my childhood.
I still stand in wonder at that perfect rainbow following a summer shower, or hold my breath for a second when approaching the seaside for the first time in a while. My point is life can all to easily distract you from the wonder of the world around you, if you stop the world and get off for just a little while it will be a break worth taking – trust me on this I do it often. Life is a runaway train with many stations … the journey is what you make of it.
As adults we hold our destiny in the palm of our hands, we determine our own fate for the most part, we may not realise it sometimes, however depending on which doors we choose to open in our life or what station we get off at these decisions will determine our over all fate in the end. So as someone once said to me many years ago, “choose your path carefully and look both ways!”